I REALLY need to vent

• I'm sitting in a library on campus and I'm freezing.
• I'm hungry but only for the things in the blessed world that are bad for me.
• I can't seem to get my ring to stop twirling around on my cold skinny finger.
• I didn't take a shower this morning and my hair is doing strange things.
• I really want to be reading but I keep thinking of everything I've forgotten to do for the retreat that's coming up in less than 2 weeks.
• I want to take a nap because for some reason, though I've gotten more than 8 hours of sleep the past TWO nights, I'm really, really tired.
• I can't stop coughing and it's starting to tick me off.
• I'm just ticked off.
• I'm sitting here at 12:20 fully aware of the fact that I have 2 hours until I have class - a really, really annoying class that I don't understand the point of - and then I have to go back to work.
• I can't get comfortable.
• Have I mentioned I'm cold?
• I really want some gluten or some sugar or some cheese or something.
• I can't seem to get a hold of the churches I need to get a hold of and I'm sitting in a library on the "talk on your cell and die" floor.
• Did you know Myriad Pro Black costs over $30? (that's a font)
• I tried making the title of this blog "i REALLY need to vent" but had to go back and capitalize the "I"
• I just want to cry and run until I collapse to the ground, out of strength and motivation, sobbing and praying for mercy.
• The first time I went to college I didn't see the point. I still don't. Only now I'm nearly 10 years older.
• I want my life to have purpose and meaning and all that good stuff.
• I know my life does have purpose and meaning but I'm going through a time here (they usually last a few days) when I can't seem to convince myself that it's true.
• I took the light rail to class today, that means I'll be late to work probably.
• I'm wasting time.
• I hate wasting time.
• I really want to scream, but I'm sitting in a library.
• Not that I'd scream anyway.
• Maybe I'll just cry. I can do that quietly, right?
• I need a hug.
• Crap I'm starting to get a headache.
• I need prayer.
• I don't logically understand evolution and I don't get it that I'm supposed to.
• Survival of the fittest makes sense until they start talking about monkeys.
• Well, technically it's not monkeys, it's apes.
• Today I learned that people in cold climates are stockier (at least it's a theory due to volume and surface area ratios). I shouldn't live here. I'm cold.
• I have a feeling some of the people in my life will read this and not understand that I'm just venting.
• I'm just venting.
• I love my life.
• I'm having a crappy day.
• There's another word for crappy that I should just use.
• I'm having a shitty day but only in my head.
• There's no reason, really, they just come.
• Thankfully they go, too.
• I'm running out of steam.
• I just want to love people and be loved and feel like I have something to offer this world.